Thoughts of the evening

I hate how you treat me

Like I’m already yours

I’m not and you don’t want me

To be with you

So what can I do?

If we can’t be friends,

What can we be?

Choose your answer carefully.

You have always known that I

I have wanted more from this.

Wiping an eyelash from my cheek

You tell me to make a wish

My freckled lips,

They wish for you.

So much past inside my present.

Past In Present by Feist

The scarlet letter isn't black
Gotta know who's got your back
Because they're right in front of you
Because they're telling you the truth

So much present inside my present
Inside my present so...so much past
Inside my present inside my past
Inside my present
So, so

Feeling it from dark to bright
When a wrong becomes a right
When a mountain fills with light
It's a volcano, it's a volcano
It's a volcano, it's a volcano

So much present, inside my present
Inside my present
So, so much past

Inside my present, inside my present
Inside my present
So, so much past

Inside my present
Inside my present...
So, so much past

This is how I feel. I feel like I can't escape where I've been. I want to have a fresh start, but when people know the old me, they already are judging the new me. Where do I go from there? I have so many questions, and I'm starting to get frustrated organizing them all.